Out of My Head

First I want to thank Mickey for this http://blissfullysubmissive.blogspot.ca/2013/12/undelete.html ... she got me thinking (oh no!)

Why do I write a blog?

I first discovered blog land in the initial stages of my D/s with FormerD ... it was a great place to learn about this lifestyle, instead of from the countless "porn" sites out there. And when my relationship ended, it was here that I turned to, and from the advice of a very wise man ... sent me down my path.

It's been an "interesting" journey so far. Most of it I have spent alone. And that's not such a bad thing.

But I digress, I think I shall leave the reflections for another post.

So why do I blog & why here?

Basically, it's the one place I can get all the jumbled thoughts out of my head & down on "paper" so to speak.

It does give me clarity and has "forced" me to be very honest with myself.

I do not write for the enjoyment of others, or for validation or acceptance ... I don't know, maybe they are bi-products?

I am still always so amazed & surprised, that people even read my blog. And utterly Gobsmacked by the show of support & encouragement by all those who comment. It is an important part of any bloggers life, I believe, whether we (me) admit it or not.

But it is not why I write.

I often wonder, where I would be if I hadn't had the courage (desperation) to write that email to that wise man way back in April, when I was sinking so deep into the Abyss of not knowing what the hells I was doing. I would probably be back ... locked safely behind those walls, wondering why my vanilla "sex" life sucks so much.

I write because it helps me. This is the one & only place where I can be totally honest, without fear of reprisals (even though I do get them occasionally - probably well deserved too). It's a rare gift, for me at least, to have this blog.

I am grateful. Grateful that I have this blog & I am grateful that you all follow me & offer your unwavering support. And yes that includes my lurker in Russia who has been a constant visitor for over a week now! Thank you .. maybe you will stop by & say hello? No? That's okay too .. just know you are welcome here.

I am also grateful to be able to read about everybody else's lives too . To be allowed into your lives, in some small way, has been wonderful & I have learned lots thru you all.

Mickey ... I am glad that you decided to undelete. Not only because I would miss you but also because you are inspiring to me as well!!!