Monday, March 10, 2014

Back to the Grind & Just Another Sub's (JAS) question

Ugggh! Back to the grind & this NEVER ending winter .. seriously STOP NOW!

JAS has some really good questions! (I can't wait to catch up & start asking questions of my own!)

1. What's your favourite book/series? Is there any genre that you prefer and are there any genres you avoid? 

I love the Star Wars novel ... I have over 200 of them. I think there are probably 350 and counting. No, I have not read all the ones I have but I am working on it .. I think I am at about 85!

I also loved the Harry Potter Books. When Book 7 came out, I read it 4 times in a row. I mean I finished it & IMMEDIATELY started right back at the beginning again .. 4 times! I have read each book several times.

I have loved the Little House series by Laura Ingalls Wilder, since I was a kid ... I have read them all several times & will continue to do so.

Stephen King is another great favourite! It has to be my favourite! It was so complicated to read .. I would have to go back and re-read certain parts because it jumped around so much! Brilliant writing.

I also love historical romances. Johanna Lindsey & Kathleen E. Woodiwiss are my favs. I can literally sit at the cottage all day .. out on the deck in the sunshine & read an entire book in one day.

I am actually, not a fan of alot of genres .. I hate SCI-FI *I KNOW RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!,  And most genres not listed above. I will read almost anything but if it has not caught my attention within the first chapter I am apt not to continue to read it.

Oh yes, and I actually did like the 50 shades series, not for it's accuracy but for it's purely fictitious entertainment value (well the 3rd book DID really suck but the first 2 I liked) ... don't roast me - I know it's poorly written but I don't care! :P

2. Is there anything you had preconceptions of involving ttwd that turned out to be completely wrong once you experienced it? 

Preconceptions? The only thing I REALLY knew about ttwd is the porn aspects. I had once gone to a fetfair ... a long time ago, where everything was on display & that this silly young girls (18-20 year olds) were throwing themselves at "Doms" to be spanked etc etc .. it really was laughable. And I knew of some "Doms" & "subs" in the local goth community that were all about the public show .. it was all about collars & whips & chains & "DOMLY ARROGANCE" ... And I knew the porn I had secretly been watching online. It was all cold & dungeons, & whips & chains, mass orgies. It all seemed so cold, & impersonal ... and alot of it made me wetter than wet! It had tweak my interest alot. My ex & I experimented a little bit but it was most unsatisfactory to me. I would have loved to "try" it. But I was far too shy to EVER act on my curiosities.

Then I met Mr Experience on Plenty of Fish .. quite by chance. He didn't really "talk" to me though & I never really understood. I met FormerD shortly after that & what a difference. He spent alot of time TALKING to me .. asking questions. And saying things like "I would use you as a fuck toy, humiliate & dehumanize you, why would you want to do this?" Over & over again he would ask me these questions ... sprinkled in with getting to know each other etc etc. I had never had so many frank & open conversations before about sex, & everything & anything.

But none of that prepared me for that first time with FormerD. Sure I did have my "first BDSM" experience with Mr Experience but it was more like being with a bumbling idiot who would rather watch porn on my iPad than Dominate me. It wasn't at all what I thought it was supposed to be. All I still knew was the "porn" aspect of it all.  NOTHING prepared me for my first real experience with TTWD! I don't think that FormerD could have explained it either .. I am not sure it was what he expected either.

I didn't REALLY know what to expect (except the porn, the whips & chains etc) but what I got!!! HOLY HANNA!!!!!!

It was hot, it was sensual, you could feel the sexual energy & tension in the room. Every touch, whether it be hard or soft, made me weak in the knees. It was nothing like what I didn't know what to expect, and it was so much more than I ever could have imagined. Well I would have NEVER imagined it would be so hot, so erotic, so sensual .. did I mention HOT??? I was literally euphoric for days afterwards! And though I didn't know it at the time .. I was HOOKED!

3. If you could tell the you from 20 years ago one thing, what would that be?

DON'T BE AFRAID!

Honestly! If I knew then what I know now!!!!

But really, it's not something I dwell on .. the past & what I should or should not have done etc.

I truly believe that we are the sum of our past. If I wasn't such a shy, scared, introvert back then, if I hadn't been such a bad student in high school, if I had gone to university, if I didn't do this, or if I had done that .. yadda yadda yadda. The thing is, IF I hadn't done the things I did .. if I had of done just one thing different ... I would NOT be where I am right now. I would not be the person I am now. I would not have to things I have right now.

I have regret but it's for the things I cannot change. For whatever reason, medical, chance, "god", "natural selection" or whatever else ... I have been denied the one thing that I ever truly wanted ... a child. *shrug* It was just not meant to be .. shit happens & I have accepted it because what other choice did I have???

 But again, if one little thing was different than what I have already done or haven't done  .. I would not be "me" ... right now.

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Thanks JAS ... for some truly interesting questions.




15 comments:

  1. Welcome home. Love your answers. A cottage and a book? My perfect day!

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    1. Yup .. I am a very spoiled kittie .. I grew up at the cottage & it's my one true home! ... ahhhh ... can't wait for the lazy days of summer!!!!!

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  2. Terrific answers gk. The best Doms are not arrogant. I am also amazed by the power of a scene between an experienced Dom and a sub.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. I totally agree joey .. those that I refer to are the worst. They don't respect subs .. they use them. I am so very fortunate that I had FormerD to show me how truly amazing D/s can be.

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  3. Hi. I'm new to your blog. I love hearing about people's book choices as I'm a huge bookworm. Which Stephen King books have you read? I read The Shining early this year. It was an awesome read.

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    1. I haven't actually read the Shining .. I am not sure why either. I think because I had such a hard time with the Stand! It took me forever to get into it .. once I did, it was good. Same with the Tommyknockers. I love IT .. it is my favourite. There are 2 books that he did in tandum .. Desperation & the Regulators (which he wrote under his ghost name).. they sort of had the same plot. It was very creative! Pet Semetary scared the pants off me but it was really good to. .. Wow, it's actually been quite awhile since I have read any of his books. His short stories are really good too. That man is an evil genius! What an imagination! I am so happy he didn't retire!

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    2. I like Stephen King too, for the most part. Desperation and Regulators were a bizarre combination with the criss-crossing of names and such. Remember Tak!?

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    3. No I can't remember Tak! I should really go back & re-read these books! I do love his writing so much .. the weirder the better! I just remember really liking both bootks but can't really remember what they are about. ... weird

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    4. Hmm...so what ghost name is Desperation and Regulator under-sounds like they're worth the read. I've never read The Stand-would really like to!

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    5. His psdo (see I say ghost writer cuz I cannot spell that other word for it) ... he writes as Richard Buchman but it's not so much of a secret. So Deseperation is a Stephen King novel & the Regulators is Richard Bauchman. The Stand I found to be a really really hard read. Same with the Tommyknockers. One day I will tackle the Shining too!!!

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  4. Oooh yay for HP. I actually didn't read the series until a few months after book 7 came out. My oldest wanted to read it and everybody was telling me how 'evil' it was and I shouldn't let her read it. I don't believe in judging a book you haven't read, so I thought I'd read the series and decide myself. I finished it in less than a week. I even faked menstrual cramps so Phillip would make dinner and take care of the kids so I could lay in bed and read (bad Aurora...I know. But this was pre-TTWD). But I've read it at least a dozen times since.

    And yay for Little House and Stephen King. I'm listening to 11/22/63 right now. It's different -- a lot more romance than I'm used to from him. My absolute favorite was The Talisman. Although I read it like a zillion years ago as a teenager and I'm afraid to read it again because I probably will be disappointed.

    And your last question...you sound exactly like Phillip. That's what I hear every time I feel guilty or bad about something way back in our past. Well we might not be here now if one of us did even one little thing differently...Sometimes I think I'd like a time machine though to try it out for sure.

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  5. Wow ... there's something you don't hear everyday .. Stephen King & romance. i am going to have to check that book out!

    But it's true don't you think. If you did just one thing differently in the past .. how would it have effected your life? It's a pretty heavy thought if you think about it. Everybody would want a time machine or a do over at least once in their lives. It's such a big statement .. "If only I knew then, what I knew now" :D But nope, I wouldn't want to change a thing because despite being alone & pining away for things that will never be .. I am pretty happy with where I am at right now. Besides what is done is done, you can't go back so you just take what you have learned, apply it to your life & move ever forward.

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  6. Ok, this might seem like an odd question, but above you described how hot and sensual and different from how you ever imagined it would be it was the first time with FormerD. Can you give any more specifics in your description, or, do you have any idea if there's any video out of there of it being done this hot sensual way? Because, like you said, there's porn, but if there's a better hotter more sensual way to do this, I'd love to know what it is, so I could show Master. Hee.

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  7. Thanks gk for all the answers. Glad you liked the questions. I also have a love for the Harry Potter books. (I just finished rereading them in fact!!!)

    I'm completely baffled that you don't like sci-fi though. Never would have imagined that in a million years!!!

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  8. I know right!!! I am too weird all my geeky friends even. At the con on the weekend my friend was dressed as this Dude from Lord of the Rings (hate that too btw) .. long white hair, beard & robes ... no idea who he was. BAHAHAHAHA. I don't like reading SCI-FI at all ... I only got into the Star Wars books because I found a couple in the "ships library" while we were at sea. I am more of a geek movie person but then again .. it's easier to list what I like (much shorter list than what I don't like) .. I LOVE Torchwood but HATE Dr Who .. no Star Trek at all (I don't mind some Next Generation but only if there is nothing else to watch. I have a great love of Logan's Run though .. how many people know THAT movie *giggles*. My friend is organizing a cosplay viewing party for the opening night of Divergent & everybody is soooo excited cuz it's soooo good BUT I have no idea what it is but it looks good so if the Brat wants to go .. I will probably go, in "street clothes" ... unless they let me wear my Ewok! ;) *sighs* too feaky for geeks!!!

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