broken

No not like that!!!! My fibromyalgia is just kicking my ass this weekend!!! O.o  (the title got your attention though didn't it!) ;)

There has been SOOOO much that has happened since my last post! It's hard to know where to start.

And now I have apparently been tasked to BLOG!!! o.O   (yes of course that tickles me pink!!)

So apparently 4500+ texts in 10 days IS a good thing!

After spending last weekend at my cottage with friends, it was FINALLY time to meet with my "texting buddy" and I am happy to announce that the 4500+ texts lived up to their promise in real life.

We met last Sunday night for that all important "first meeting" .. we grabbed coffee (yes of course it was Timmies - Tim Horton's best coffee in the world!) and heading down to the canal. It was a very nice place to be able to sit & talk (& cuddle & kiss!!!) ... very private with the exception of a ninja duck!

This past week, we have spent as much time together as we can. Our work schedules are literally opposite of each others. I am a Monday to  Friday, 7am-3pm kinda girl .. he is Thursday to Sunday 12 hour midnight shifts kinda guy. It will take a lot of adjustments for both of us to be able to spend time together .. both vanilla & playtime.

I am enjoying our 0630am morning coffee dates! ;)

So, in a nut shell, in the past week ... I have gained a boyfriend & a Dom!!

And life is GOOD!

(((HUGS)))
lost kittie
=^.^=

PS .. There you go Sir ... task completed BEFORE you woke up .. as promised! xoxoxoxo

Banner Day

My fight against management just went stupid because my union present is an unprofessional cunt. I am probably going to go after her now too.

My "date" had to be postponed & I REALLY needed that.

And last Saturday my beautiful friend  who I have love since 1995, was given 10 days to live ... he lasted 7! Fair Wind & Following Seas Golden Boy ... you will be missed!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  

:'(

Getting My Feet Wet (Getting Here)

I didn't set out looking for a D/s relationship, or kinky even. BDSM? Nice fantasy maybe, but I am too much of a coward for that!!!

I joined Plenty of Fish, more as a joke than anything. I needed somewhat of an escape from my reality.

I have a very happy, active (somewhat weird) social life. I am a geek, well to be more specific a HUGE Star Wars Fangirl. My social circle is all about the geekdom & Star Wars. We dress up (for charity I might add) and we go to comic conventions. It's ALOT of fun. I have finally found my niche & I am very happy with it.

But it is lonely. I got out of a long term (& unhealthy) relationship, a little over a year ago. I through myself into my social circle & I spent the year re-discovering myself. I have made many close attachments along the way. Everybody remark on how much more happier I was! Unfortunately everybody in my circle, are either married or gay! (yeah a couple of other single ladies in there as well - we're all straight so no "help" there either)

I have a very spiritually intimate relationship with a man that is just a baby really. He has just turned 21 & he is gay. I am almost 47 years old! We have a bond like no other. We are the "odd couple" ... our friends think of us like an old married couple. I spent a long time trying to figure it out. His mother even likes me ... she is 2 years older than I am. Weird! We all even went to Hawaii together for Christmas!

I have given up trying to figure it out .. it just is what it is. I just love him ..we are like soul mates. I guess I am the ultimate of fag hags (I SO hate that term).

But he is young. He has his whole life ahead of him & one day he will leave me .. or well I will definitely NOT be No1 in his life forever. This was also a very hard concept for me to fathom. I like that I am in the first person he talks to in the morning & the last he talks to at night .. not to mention all the silly little messages throughout the day.  But of course, it does not fulfil the needs I would have as a woman. A boyfriend to be specific. He doesn't like the idea of that but that is because he is a brat! *giggles* and he suffers from "only child syndrome".

"I don't want you but nobody else can have you either" - that's not what he says but it's there all the same!

It's not that he would ever stop me from pursuing a relationship, nor I him, but he does get jealous (unless he is seeing somebody himself). ... like I said Brat!

Anyway, I realized I needed to re-enter the dating world. I HATE the dating world in RL ... especially the "bar scene"  So I joined POF .. oh yeah the virtual meat market!

I met a couple of nice guys .. I was surprised. Of course,  I got alot of creepers too. It's really surprising how many 20 year olds are interested in "mature women" ... uhh, no thanks I've got my Brat that is MORE than enough for me.

And profiles? Do they read them? I was not really specific in who I am .. LOVE Star Wars and I am a biker (true story) ...

MARRIED MEN need not apply.

Apparently, this statement did NOT apply to all those married men who sent me messages. *rolls eyes*

And seriously, do guys really think sending a picture of their dick will get them laid? I like when they do that though ..

"Wanna see my lightsaber" *pic attached*  Yeah I looked - I needed a good laugh!  

My response .. "Lightsaber?! Looks more like a toothpick to me."

Hmm, the guy deleted his message. :'(

*shakes head* I LOVE fucking with losers though .. seriously. I can be very vicious if the situation deems & I love it.

Oh well I guess, putting myself out there, I was bound to get that sort of shit.

And then lightening struck .....