And the first thoughts out of my lazy brain?
...... I don't feel like it.
What? Really?
But I complied..
And I am doing it but ... my mind *sighs*
He kinda called me on it and asked .... "am I irritating you/"
"Am I irritating you?" hmmmm ... good question.
No, He is not ... but I am irritating me.
Well I am not mad or resentful or anything like that. I am just being lazy
And it really has gotten me to thinking about my submission.
Not that I don't want it because I do .. I absolutely do. And I want to be the best sub I can possibly be for him (no, I know that nobody is perfect & there are always going to be "those" days)
But I need to school my mind.
To always try to be more pleasing ... to be more submissive.\Not just during play but all the time.
And I realized just how far I still have to go.
(but I will always keep going ,,, I am perpetually a work in progress!)
