Living Online

I love "for the love of a sub" (from tumblr)  ... He writes very honestly and thoughfully.

online D/s relationships

I recently came across this article (link above)

Anyway, having an online D/s relationship IS alot like fantasy. I have seen alot of different types of relationships online. Some are very beautiful and genuine. Most I find have an air of phoniness to them .. they are not real .. and they tend to overcompensate for the fact that it is fantasy (if that makes sense). I think it's just the nature of the beast.

Wolf and I are online all the time. We text all day & we skype at night. It's the next best thing to being there.

It doesn't matter what we do .. whether we play or not. We just are. We play ... we talk .. we play and talk. *smiles*

He is out "on location" right now .. working the "graveyard" shift. We just finished skyping ... because He had to go .. something broke. But anyway, it's fun .. Him sitting his truck, explaining his job to me. It's like being at work with Him. The oil field is quite the interesting place to be. He thinks I'm weird cuz I find it all very fascinating.

But I digress ....

Like I said, it's the next best thing to being there. But we do make an concerted effort to spend time together in real space. We have been really lucky that way. His job does not allow for Him to have much time off .. hardly any actually. And the distance ... But we manage to make it work.

It's been just about 7 months now since we got together (wow - 7 months already!) and we are preparing for our 5th visit together. Considering the time constraint and the considerable distance (don't even get me started on air travel!!!) we have done really well.

We even have a long term plan in the works.

So yes, online relationships can & do work .... LDR's can & do work.

You just have to want it bad enough.

.... oh and for our fifth visit He insists on coming here ... in December! .. because He wants to experience Canada in winter! .... Silly Man! ;)

Dear Naughty Prince Charming,

You went there ... you DELIBERATELY fucked with my mind, knowing full well the effect you would have on me, you went there.

And then you abandoned me. I have no idea where you went or why.

I am left feeling hurt, angry & confused. You are the last person I would have ever expected this from. You who values and expects, no, demands openness & honesty. Very shocking of you & not very manly, I must say.

Sure, I am not stupid, I know the reality of the situation would make it next to impossible to ever have the type of relationship I would have LOVED to have with you. You knew how I felt & how vulnerable I am. I have opened up myself to you, even stating how dangerous I actually think you are. I don't know .. maybe you thought of that as some sort of challenge???

But you loved my quirkiness (I actually think you NEED that in your life) and I did intrigue you no small amount. I could understand why you wouldn't want to take it any further though .. whether distance, or personal conflict or even the fact that you do not find me physically attractive (I AM after all an acquired tasted - although very addictive once tried).

Well, you ARE in my head now and I can't get you out of it! :(

But your silence is deafening. I am very shocked and saddened that I didn't even rate any sort of explanation for your silence. (I do hope that everything is all right with you though.)

What I really miss though, is your friendship and somewhat "mentoring". You have been a voice of reason & calm for me this past 2 months ... someone I thought I could always count, & I am really feeling that loss now.

I don't know .. maybe some day you will explain it all to me.

Dazed and Confused,

Lost Kittie